For as long as I can remember I dreamed of being a mother. I imagine most little girls do. I had this dream that my life would forever be complete.
As I sit here today surrounded by my three precious blessings I am amazed. I always thought that I would be the one to mold little lives into the picture of perfection with little bows and dresses and ball hats and cleats. Little did I know that one day they would be molding me. My children are more that I could have ever imagined. They make me want to be a better person. They love unconditionally even when I am at my worst. They encourage me when I down and shower me with hugs. I wonder sometimes if they know just how amazing they are. I feel blessed, honored and scared all at the same time. Blessed because I couldn't imagine anything more perfect than these three precious souls. Honored that God chose me to be their mother. Scared because I know I don't do everything right and I don't ever want to leave them with emptiness, scars or the wondering if I every really loved them. Oh I can't tell you how many times I think of that last statement. I try so hard to live every day of my life working on being the perfect mother. Putting away toys, helping with homework, washing clothes, making beds, being the taxi, fixing boo boo's, that sometimes I feel like I take for granted the most important thing.......showing them just how much I love them. Can we ever do that? Can we ever show them how much? I don't think we can. Not for me at least. My love for these three is so much that it hurts. It's so deep that I can't find a way to express it or show them. Nothing I could say or do would ever be enough. So today, as I am showered with homemade gifts and cards, I hug a little longer, kiss them 7 times more and tell them that I am the one honored to be in there life. No matter what mistakes they make, or what accomplishments they achieve, I will love them until I take my very last breath in this world......and then I will love them some more. Thank you Bree, Drew and Ally, for allowing me to be your momma. Thank you for being everything I wished I could have been and so much more. Thank you for sharing your wisdom that you have gained in your few short years to teach me how to be a better person. Thank you for sharing your life with me. But most of all, thank you for loving me. You all probably don't even realize the things you do for me because it's in the little everyday things that you bring me such joy.
I love you
~momma
~Lisa
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